Sincerity in a Disingenuous World
It seems to me that every day, I encounter yet another person who is trying to sell me something. My inbox buzzes all day with new products, new sales, and new items. When I turn on the TV, I am told that I "must have" this, or that I "can't live without" that. It seem that everywhere I turn I am faced with something that is trying to cheat me out of my money, my time, and my life.
Advertisers are not the only one to blame. In fact, I regularly observe people around me acting without sincerity. All around me I see friends pretending to be someone they are not. Sometimes this is for the sake of popularity, sometimes for the sake of business, and even for the sake of faith. I believe this is not out of an attempt to be dishonest, but because they have spent so much time acting, so much time building themselves up as someone that they have forgotten who they really are.
With so many disingenuous things and people around us? How are we expected to be sincere? How can we be expected to be one person to everyone, instead of different things to different people. Won't we become outcasts or something? No. In fact, throughout the past year, I have taken this as a personal challenge. I have put my best effort into being sincere, standing up with integrity, and being one person across all of my relationships. I have found a sense of peace through this process, mainly because I am beginning to realize who I am truly for the first time. I won't say that it has been easy, in fact, I have illuminated things about myself that I am not proud of. I have identified tendencies and patterns of thought that are harmful to my relationships and myself. Being sincere means being able to look at yourself honestly. Looking into the mirror and seeing the bad and the good side by side was a painful thing to do, but as time went on, it got easier.
Not to say that over time I learned to filter out the bad tendencies, I just learned to understand them as two parts of one person. These things good and bad make me who I am. Of course, I will fight the bad things, but I understand that for every bad habit I drop, another will begin. My goal at the beginning of this train of thought was a similar response. I wanted everyone in my life to answer the question "Who is Evan Wise?" with a similar response. I wanted them to see my good, my bad, because that is who I am. I also wanted them to see at my core my faith. My faith is what drives my life, my actions, and my thoughts. I don't always do the best job of representing it, but I want it to be clear that I will never abandon my lifelong pursuit of God. When the question is asked "Who is Evan Wise?" my ideal answer in my own mind is "a man after God's own heart." If I can strive to make that answer my reality, my purpose, and my mission, then I won't be trying to be someone I am not, but rather attempting to make myself something better. I challenge you to do the same. Sincerely- Evan